heard :)

Dec. 23 - After years of taking precaution, ngayon (kung kelan na ako 18 years old) lang ako sumemplang sa bicycle. haha. Ngayon lang ulit ako nagkaroon ng "major" sugat, bruise, at scratches. I was like wind nung nasa bike pa. I so love riding it. I knew I was about to crash.. but did nothing. Ayun, semplang! haha. Like what I said to Vickii, pain is existence, for me, so okay lang na masaktan .

Little did I know that later that night, Iam also goingto experience pain -- emotional pain.



It is painful to feel that your presence isn't liked. Especially if it is your siblings that makes you feel that way. Even painful when yourparents doesn't appreciate the efforts that you are doing to keep everything in harmony.. your effort to keep everything intact, peaceful.

Physical pain, I can endure. Emotional pain - I don't think so.
I really don't like it when I am being forced to do what I want. (I am stubborn,yes. Ask my batchmates).
I cried myself to sleep. Praying that as I attend the 4am mass later, I would somehow be enlightened.



Dec. 24 - I attended the last misa de gallo. But aside the celebration itself, nasa agenda ko rin ang makita ang aking crush that I only get to see in the church during mass.

My attention was focused on Father Pedro's sermon when I got a glimpse of him on my right side. Gosh! Akala ko he's always seated on the other end of the church. Feeling ko tuloy ay pinaglalapit kami ni Bro.. naks .


He is my distraction. But I liked it.

Thanks Bro, for hearing my prayer. I am happy now.

Happy Christmas everyone!

"I love you" - is it worth the word?

I dunno what has gotten into me that made me create this post. Depressed na naman siguro.

Well, I definitely remember that night when you finally told me that you like me. It all started there. The "LY" you sent me in an SMS blew you. There I knew it wasn't like -- it was love.

Tapos yun na. You scared me actually :P and I thought distance would make you realize that I don't deserve you. Pero ako rin pala ang sisira ng image ko sa'yo. You discovered how bad I can get (Note: What you have seen is not yet the worst of me). Sa image mo, hindi ikaw yung tipong maghahabol sa isang katulad ko ng ugali. But despite that, I saw ALL you're efforts. And I tell you, YOU ARE DEEPLY APPRECIATED.

Lintik na appreciation yan.. it made my brain turn the other way around.

Kung dati tinataguan kita, dinededma, at pinapaalis, ngayon ako naman ang naghahanap sa'yo. Bakit mo kasi ako sinanay. Ngayon tuloy super gumulo lalo ang buhay at isip ko. :|

You were so good at people..I thought nakilala mo na ako in the very short span of time that we knew each other. But how the situation is right now made me give another thought on that.

There, I think I love you na.

But if the trade-off of telling you how much I love you now is my academics, well, I think this love can disappear as easy as how you had forgotten me and how fast this stupid love has caught me entangled in you.

Distance -- we still have to have a lot of it between us.

i just want you to know that you already have a space here <3.

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I am in one of my deepest moments in my entire academic life -- I have received yet another 5.0 and is in trouble of having another by tomorrow morning.

Honestly, I am asking myself "Why do I need to get through all these?".. I could have just enrolled in another university and make my life more easier than the life I am actually struggling to live today. But hello! I am here -- crying out on the "failed" marks I get, apparently regretting the decision I have made for myself of entering this university. Now I have to get out of here alive.

I can only imagine you giving me a bear hug. Hanggang imagination na naman ba ako? Haha


*kisses*

Googling the Verdejos

I was terminally depressed last night that I (together with Leia and Karlene) walked back to College from Anos (where a ball game versus UP ABS was held). We had stop-overs at a bakery and at 7/11 on our way back.

When I was finally alone and at the campus, "emo-ness" enveloped me, and you wouldn't believe me when I tell you that I was able to create a rhyming four-liner on my head.. haha. [another pointless story we have here:)]

Anyway, as we won't be having our Econ 104 class today, I decided to go to the Main Library to search for some stuff I need (Econ 137 data, data for the inforeview, etc.) and I think you conlude that I got bored that I have written this post. YES!

I don't know why but it suddenly came to me to google up myself thinking "San kaya nanggaling ang mga Verdejo" and there's something that pushes me (even before) to find as many Verdejos as I could and determine in which part of the globe we came from and, if possible, we could go there and meet the "foreign Verdejos"..haha. Kasi diba, from the sound itself, Verdejo is somewhat "alien"? (or it was just me?) Anyway..

Rather than typing my full name, I just typed in my first and last name. And what I saw as the monitor refreshed made me smile :)

I saw my cousin's friendster account (She is also Diana Verdejo -- and I personally knew her), my blogspot and imeem account, and people that I was looking for! haha. Those pips whose family name was Verdejo (most of them were from the USA, Spain and Mexico -- latino en latina!! haha), my smile even widened upon learning that some of those people hold a professional title (wow. bigatin pala mga posibleng kamag-anak ko.. haha) and the DUO VERDEJO :)

Duo Verdejo is Adrian and Mehgan Verdejo are musically-inclined siblings who currently resides in British Columbia on West Coast Canada, where they perform and teach music. You can visit the links below

www.duoverdejo.com and http://www.myspace.com/duoverdejo

And by the way, Verdejo is also a variety of wine grape that has long been grown in the Rueda winegrowing region of Spain. Verdejo create wines that are aromatic, soft and full-bodied. (from http://en.wikipedia.org)

Of what I learned from today, I had a sudden urge to travel and find these people. :) Who knows? I might bump on one of them in a busy street on Spain.. haha (I really dreamt of going to Spain even when I was younger) and an urge to continue studying Spanish :)

It's fun pala to search your roots (or kahit hindi na kayo ganun ka-related).. It's even easier at this times because of the internet and social-networking sites available.. Try mo.. :)